My Poetic Odyssey

 What are you waiting for? I'm not waiting, I was before. The light was taunting, and you ignored. A veil wrapped around me, I swum offshore. After a house of gold, why'd you still want more? Pardon, I think I confused glory with valour. And this illusion, it led you to a different door? Oblivion from my void, it tore. Do you prefer unknowing? do you deplore? I was comfortable, then novelty swept the floor. Can't say it was easy, yet as the curtains unfold, I can be sure, that the mist I abhor. Even now, my boat is strong but I can't move my oar. Hence I ask, still, what are you waiting for?

 Unconditional has so many conditions In the four walls of expectation Love is not in blood, or likeness of interest It's in commitment and trust Sometimes I feel devoid and then hit by asteroids with support And when I really need some love It feels like the walls are closing up in a fort like I don't deserve it but then I get too much and when I feel confident  and my esteem's bursting with purpose I bleed with frustration why am I so angry why does it hurt can't I have expectations running isn't helping I need to make it work when it really counts i'm frozen,  forget how to speak drowning, confusion, can't translate how I feel sometimes I roam, find myself alone and then amidst a cyclone, in mess and fear it's all so intense, even to me I seem dense the cosmos surely, is playing offense,  nothing's ever clear explaining myself isn't easy so please don't make me I don't know much about me don't understand my feelings need some rest ...

 I got the lead, in my life play But when I start to act, i just get swayed Want to take control, run the show on my own But I’m the understudy, not in charge of my lines or me  Naive newcomer, gonna take some practice But how can you judge me just by my leather jacket Do I like a threat to you, well yes I may be, but It’s not my dominance just your sorry excuse of personality They shift the focus like i don't deserve it Begging for attention, that’s what they’ll say But I’m sorry, you just don’t get that I am not your sidekick All round is deception, yes I’m aware But sometimes I like to pretend that every smile’s not a snare That after all the games, they still have a conscience What’s left of humanity, the very scrap of assurance I can’t help but feel weak when I realise How armed with darkness my opposition resides It’s beyond my believing, the world is ending But maybe to start all over With a clear beautiful world Till the conception arrives, that being heard means going...

 A glow radiating from her soul A tether to hold on to It snows, a shimmer of promise of the light in the darkness When you’re all alone Achievements, I see loss Big dreams don’t halt  the ticking clock When you open the door To all so much more The fear it seizes my head All I dream’s in red But, the glow radiates and I know To hold on to it. In the spotlight of the radar See if I deign, is my will strong Step up to the stage, get a grip on my courage and Break a leg, I can do this It’s all mess, nothing I can’t fix but Why can’t I get away from making people happy Helping them, it’s my bliss but I get taken for granted Although Help yourself is what she said I can’t seem to block the beam Of feeling just like them, selfish and ignorant Would it hurt though for a day But that just isn’t me.

  Do you hear that blast? Thoughts of me being next hit fast. Cuz what is this life if not uncertainty Justice inexistent, we blindly believe In liars, in haters, in kingdoms of glam If that was your birthright, please do understand You, are blowing away my home, then you feed lies My faith, my peace erupting right by my eyes No- You can’t take away my pride Take it away, then you hide You want war- i'll be your instigator So keen for your loss, think you can claim yourself victor We’re done hiding away- come meet us at battle You’re time’s here to pay, good luck admitting your failure Soon will darkness emerge from your dazzle We’ll be ready, good luck admitting your failure

 The rifle is loaded, the siren awoken It's a routine now and here I'm frozen Stand alone atop the scorching fire Alone I am in the raid, they've broken the walls of my empire Against thousands I'm defenseless My high voice buried under fears endless No, I let go of my doubt and swallow my wariness I'll withstand the foray- hang on to my will of resilience A defiance to the lashes A strong oak in dead grasses Radiant cinder in the ashes A victor in the masses Justice doesn't take passes And tonight, I don't take chances